THOUGHTS

Jeeez,

 

Just got on the train from work and "Young and Beautiful" with Lana Del Rey came on in my Urbanears. I haven't listen to that song since I moved back from California because I simply just can't. Every time the song comes on I have to turn it off immediately because it hurts too much. It's highly likely impossible for you to understand what this song means to me so it's quite pointless for me to even try to explain. Either way, all I can say is that I spent hours alone, sobbing in my room back in Cali listening to this song on repeat. It was by the time when I was realizing I was going home and since the song is associated with that kind of harsh experience it's to me so touching. It might be difficult for most of you to relate to such things but I can say that leaving California was the hardest thing I ever had to do.

 

It's interesting how I still turn so emotional when the song comes on. And how I still miss Cali so outrageously much, my home❤️

 

Kisses,

Tilly

In my hot pink sweatpants from A&F and my favorite t-shirt from Newport Beach I reluctantly spent my first night in my own bed after a year away...

 

Åh va detta inlägg tog hårt på mig. Du kanske kommer ihåg att jag tidigare har mejlat dig om råd för utbytesår och sådant, och när jag var som mest taggad med ansökningar och sånt stök så lyssnade jag dygnet runt på Lana Del Rey och speciellt den låten.. Jag hade en spellista med bara hennes låtar och lyssnade bara på dom när jag läste utbytesbloggar och sånt.. Sen skaffade jag pojkvän och är världens lyckligaste med honom men har aldrig haft sån ångest som det senaste året eftersom jag på grund av honom inte kommer åka. Haha, skönt att skriva av sig, men hela grejen med kommentaren var att de är sjukt hur låtar kan ta med sig så mycket minnen. Älskar din blogg också btw!